Hello to all,
Yes I know it has been a year since I have been on my lovely little blog, but some times its better late then never to come back and find ways to get back on track take control over life, poke fun of a couple things here and there and who knows what will happen in then end. So lets recap the past year, shall we.
I fell off the wage and fell hard rolled a couple of times watched it speed off into the sunset, decided to lay on the ground have a coke and stay for awhile. Type of fell of the wagon. (which really means I started to eat crap food and have gain most of the weight I lost, good times i tell you. Which I was while I was eating all that crap food....not so much fun now when I jump on that scale. Anyway in November I took a chance with my company applied for a Job out in Cali and in Dec I took it. By Feb I was on my way to the Golden Gate State. Moving out there has been one of the most challenging things that I have ever done. I left everything in Colorado, family, friends, a boyfriend to try and live out this crazy dream I always had. Needless to say that lovely saying the grass is not always greener tends to be true for the most part, this move has been a struggle lots of ups and downs, some times it seems like more downs then there are of ups. However the experience is what I will always take with me and yes there are anything that I have learned along the little journey. Such as I eat when i'm unhappy, and I mean eat and cook crazy ass things late at night. Which has lead to my gaining of weight again. So i'm on emotional roller coster from hell, every time I feel like i'm getting a head something makes me want to run and hide under my bed with a bag of fries and a big ass coke. Out of all of this work has been my biggest struggle, it has pushed me to the braking point, it has made me question my abilities to even do a job, let alone do a job right, and in many ways has broken a part of me that, I have tried so hard to put back together over the last year, and the hardest part about all of it is I don't know how to stop it, or even fix it at this point in time. Nothing like sitting back and watching something fall apart and not know what end to grab to stop it from falling apart. However there are things that are a little different this time then the last, Such as I know what is going on this time, I know when to say enough is enough and when to cut my lost and do what I needed to do to get out before it total sucks me, and i'm working on all of that now. With all of this to I have managed to deiced to go back to school for my Masters in Oct which is going to be hella hard and crazy scary yet thats one of the few things I"m total excited for. I have also deiced to take control again of my weight, stop eating like shit and get back on that wagon and see where it might take me. I wanted to believe that I have had gone through the rockiest of paths these last seven months, however I know that there will be more of those spots in my future, but the challenge and the experience is what makes the person.
So with all of that, this is what has been going on the last year not a whole lot move and living in a new place state and working a new position at a new store and the stress and struggles that go with it. I"m now ready to take my life back in my own hands do what I need to do to make myself happy and healthy, and this is going to be my reboot, my start up again. My accountability to make sure i'm pushing myself to be better. So here is to the next year, a push to be happy and healthy to big changes and little ones a long the way, and the biggest thing the shedding of unwanted pounds that no one needs.
Tell the next time....which will not be next year i'm sure just a week or so.
McKnight out.
