Cinco De Mayo- better know as Cinco de drinko

            Can we just say I’m staring my birthday weekends off on Cinco De Drinko weekend, yup that’s right going out with my Denver crew the weekend before my birthday which will be spent with my cousin at Disneyland its cool I’m 28 going on 5, but hey how many people wanted to have a birthday in Disneyland and never got to? I guess its true dreams really do come true in the Magical Kingdome needless to say I’m like supper excited I mean its like a “whole new world, a dazzling place I never knew”…best part is all you Disney people out there have now started to sing that song…your welcome.

I am really excited to be turning 29, so many good things are going on for me, its like my insides feel like there going a hundred miles a minute and yet I’m trying to stay calm, cool, collective on the outside and yes, I don’t know why but I said that slow, with one eyebrow raised because…I don’t know why it just happened.   Anyway I’m going out with my friends and family this weekend and I’m so excited to be able to spend this time with them, to have a great time, share some laughs make great memories, but most of all to be a damn dancing queen with my newly found Zumba moves.  Oh yeah that’s right I’m going to shimmy shake my ass all over the palace. Lord knows that I’m going to have to work off my dinner, because there is noting light about German food or beer for that matter, and you can’t have schnitzel with out beer its like a sin against all that is good. So to make sure all stays good in the land there will be beer with my schnitzel and lots of it. It is so strange to be this damn happy and this damn excited about life.  I mean hell I could break out in song and dance, although I don’t think anyone would like to see or hear that so for now I will keep it inside, but don’t worry it will happen at some point Saturday night… fair warring to all!  Again Dancing Queen here I might throw a hip out but its cool. I’m going to the happiest place on earth the following weekend I can get Tinkerbell to sprinkle some fairy dust on my hip it will be fine…I might be flying all over the place but its cool.

Like I said I’m really excited about 29. I got some great things coming my way a lot of great opportunities happening.  Over all a total different perspective on life and what’s going on around me and who knows maybe “Some day my prince will come..” Sorry I totally have Disney songs on my mind right now, and again your welcome for that song sticking in your head as well.

            I total spaced that it’s the end of the month I’m not going to lie I have not weighed myself I have been using the scale at a friends house so I wouldn’t be tempted to jump on a scale every day that tends to be a little discouraging when you see you weight go up and down all month, so I went with this method to do it at a friends house that way I can’t see it everyday, so I have not been able to get over there and weight myself but I can tell you this. I have been rocking some of my size 18 pants, my legs are trimming down, my stomach feels a little flatter, thinner, and sexier. I have two more notches to go on my belt and then I will need a new one and I’m starting to just have one chin instead of two or three and a neck again which doesn’t happen very often in my family. So over all I’m looking hot…because well “I’m Sexy and I know It” Also for the whole food thing, no fried food month went by great, now I eat fried food and I don’t like it, I had fast food for the first time last week and its been about 2 months of no fast food, it was so bad and I got so sick, that the next day I went to whole foods and I tell you if any one looked in my basket they would have though I became a vegetarian for the day it was like I couldn’t put enough healthy food in my system to counter act the bad food that I had the day before. So over all mission accomplished on the wanting to stop eating a lot of bad food for myself, but I like it, I fell great and really that’s all that matters.

            So yeah that’s what’s going on, figure I should give you two post this week being that I slacked off the last couple weeks and next week I will be packing for my trip so I won’t have one up, but when I get back from Never, Never Land better know as Disney and LA I should have some great stuff to write on and my lovely experience out there.

‘Till next time I will leave you with a song…”La Cucaracha, La Cucaracha, La,La,La,La,La,”

Dancing Queen Out

A little behind but better late then never...Sorry

Lets see for starts I’m going to say sorry that I’m a bit behind on my blog post life is getting a little crazy. Which is funny because I thought that by taking the season off of soccer I would have had more time on my hands.  What has actually happened is I’m just as crazy busy, but it’s a good busy I like having that crazy life, being busy and on the go.  Which is why I have fallen a little behind on getting up the post as my Auntie Liz said all this means is that now I’m getting a life back, which is so true and its great, its crazy to think how much has changed for me in the last several months.

            The other day I was driving around running errands, but I still took the time to really look around me, and it was one of those amazing Colorado days where the sky is this amazing color of blue the greens are so vibrant and is the perfect contrast against the blue sky, and I really noticed how everything is coming into bloom you know springtime in the Rockies. Everything is coming to life and it really hit me, somehow with my busy schedulable, new opportunities, changes in my life and in general pushing myself to do new things I really noticed I feel like I’m coming back to life. All of these changes, all of these things going on its an amazing feeling to be able to accomplish things I never though that I would. To be able to push forward and change my life in a good way, it was that Ah-Ha moment, that damn, things are changing, I am becoming who I wanted to be, and really this is what this whole journey has been about. Yes, the losing the weight has been great and I love the way that I’m starting to look, which is something that I would not normally say but its true its great fitting into pants that I have not been able to wear in years to look in a mirror and be all damn I look good.

All of this is great but while losing the weight I have been making some major life changes my eating habits alone have been a big change. Now I can say in the past week I have tried eating fast food again I was on the go and with family so we stopped in to get a quick burger, and I never though these words would ever come out of my mouth but that was the grosses thing I have ever eaten. For someone who loved fast food, could eat it every day I never really thought that the change would really happen but it has, and the best part about it, after I had fast food all I wanted to do was eat a salad and work out. Its little changes like that, that is keeping me going and staying positive.  The other thing that I have really noticed is that I really like the way I’m looking like I said earlier, which is why its getting harder to write about things. I noticed looking back at my past blogs that I was ripping on myself and yeah it was funny but it was a way for me to poke fun at myself to deal with the things that I didn’t like about myself.  Now I really like the way I look, I don’t see myself as this chunky monkey girl with bat wings that can fly her to Paris and back. Now I see Nikki and as simple as that may seem, it was very hard for me to understand and believe who I was and really like the person I am.

            Its crazy to think that it has taken me this long to figure out all of this, but I’m glad that I did I mean better sooner then later, all though this has been a long time coming so maybe this is the later rather then the sooner, or something like that, all I know is that it’s the perfect time right before I head out on my trip to California and right before my 29^th birthday. Damn things are changing and things are heading in the right direction, so bring on spring and the new changes that come with it. Keep pushing yourself to change and move forward and become the person you want to be.  Tell next time hopefully I will be able to get something up before I head out of town.  Keep pushing forward and keep changing to who you want to be.

Nikki Out