Lets see for starts I’m going to say sorry that I’m a bit
behind on my blog post life is getting a little crazy. Which is funny because I
thought that by taking the season off of soccer I would have had more time on
my hands. What has actually happened is
I’m just as crazy busy, but it’s a good busy I like having that crazy life,
being busy and on the go. Which is why I
have fallen a little behind on getting up the post as my Auntie Liz said all
this means is that now I’m getting a life back, which is so true and its great,
its crazy to think how much has changed for me in the last several months.
The other
day I was driving around running errands, but I still took the time to really look
around me, and it was one of those amazing Colorado days where the sky is this
amazing color of blue the greens are so vibrant and is the perfect contrast
against the blue sky, and I really noticed how everything is coming into bloom
you know springtime in the Rockies. Everything is coming to life and it really
hit me, somehow with my busy schedulable, new opportunities, changes in my life
and in general pushing myself to do new things I really noticed I feel like I’m
coming back to life. All of these changes, all of these things going on its an amazing
feeling to be able to accomplish things I never though that I would. To be able
to push forward and change my life in a good way, it was that Ah-Ha moment,
that damn, things are changing, I am becoming who I wanted to be, and really
this is what this whole journey has been about. Yes, the losing the weight has
been great and I love the way that I’m starting to look, which is something
that I would not normally say but its true its great fitting into pants that I
have not been able to wear in years to look in a mirror and be all damn I look
good.
All of this is great but while
losing the weight I have been making some major life changes my eating habits alone
have been a big change. Now I can say in the past week I have tried eating fast
food again I was on the go and with family so we stopped in to get a quick burger,
and I never though these words would ever come out of my mouth but that was the
grosses thing I have ever eaten. For someone who loved fast food, could eat it
every day I never really thought that the change would really happen but it
has, and the best part about it, after I had fast food all I wanted to do was
eat a salad and work out. Its little changes like that, that is keeping me
going and staying positive. The other
thing that I have really noticed is that I really like the way I’m looking like
I said earlier, which is why its getting harder to write about things. I
noticed looking back at my past blogs that I was ripping on myself and yeah it
was funny but it was a way for me to poke fun at myself to deal with the things
that I didn’t like about myself. Now I
really like the way I look, I don’t see myself as this chunky monkey girl with
bat wings that can fly her to Paris and back. Now I see Nikki and as simple as
that may seem, it was very hard for me to understand and believe who I was and
really like the person I am.
Its crazy
to think that it has taken me this long to figure out all of this, but I’m glad
that I did I mean better sooner then later, all though this has been a long
time coming so maybe this is the later rather then the sooner, or something
like that, all I know is that it’s the perfect time right before I head out on
my trip to California and right before my 29th birthday. Damn things
are changing and things are heading in the right direction, so bring on spring
and the new changes that come with it. Keep pushing yourself to change and move
forward and become the person you want to be.
Tell next time hopefully I will be able to get something up before I
head out of town. Keep pushing forward
and keep changing to who you want to be.
Nikki Out
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