Fat Girls First Post

Have you ever walked down the street not really going anywhere just walking to people watch, listening to the people around you and watching what they do, how they act, or what they are talking about and lets face it, the first thing that anyone notices is how you look. Are you tall, short, fat, or skinny, what you are wearing, what kind of shoes you have on. Self-image is a big thing, and although so many people say they don’t care what other people think of them.  The truth is that they are worried about what people are thinking.  Not a lot of worrying but just enough to get us to put down the doughnut, to stop eating the extra fries in the bottom of the bag, which lets face it for some reason are the best fries, its like a gold mine at the bottom of the bag. That self doubt, that at the end of your Big Mac, large fries, large drink order you make sure to tell them you would like a Diet Coke instead of regular because your concerned of how many calories are in your soda, not so much the food that you are eating.
In the quest to perfect our self image you will hear the girls that are just skin and bones, you know the ones that you yell at to eat a burger or the ones that you are willing to scarifies your Big Mac just so they put some fat on their hips...you know what I’m talking about don’t act like you don’t. Anyway those girls, they always make me laugh when they lift up their arms and talk about their "bat wings" that little bit of jiggle under arms that’s not fat at all but what little bit of muscle they have just relaxed and wiggling, due to them shaking their arms to make a point. Those are the girls that I want to walk over to an say "Honey if those are bat wings, then my under arm jiggle must be more like the wings on an air bus these bad boys could fly you to France and back on one jiggle". Bat Wings my ass those girls don’t know.
In a society where image is everything along with supersizing our food and getting MacDonald’s, Burger King, Taco Bell or any fast food of your choice is considered to be an acceptable family dinner that you eat in front of the T.V.  Its no wonder so many of us are overweight, slowly killing ourselves for those hot steaming, fired till golden brown, salted fries at the bottom of the bag that make you want to jump up in the air with one arm extended fist in the air and yell SCORE!!! These are the things that help make food a fat girl’s enemy.
 I’m sure at this point some of you are trying to figure out who the hell this person is going on their rant about self image, fatty food and fat girl issues. So this is my run down… I am 28 soon to be 29 which means one more year tell I’m 30. In some ways I’m having an early life crisis not so much mid-life yet I got at least a good 10 to 15 years before I have one of those. Anyway I’m fat, horrible obese if you go off of those damn body fat charts that don’t take into account not everyone has the same body structure or muscle mass or that perhaps your race makes a difference crap like that. Back to being fat I’m 5’6 weight 270, yupp that right in a matter of 5 seconds I have committed several womanly sins… I’ve given my age, height and weight, but how else can you make people understand you and where your coming from if you don’t? I love food all kinds of food, fast food, sweet food, fatty foods, foods from all over the world oh and lets not forget drinks, sweet drinks and adult beverages.  All of which have helped me become fat, and for sometime I didn’t think I was fat or overweight whatever you want to call it, but now as I’m getting a little bit older and I don’t care for the way my body looks. I’m like a skinny girl trapped in a fat girls body. Problem being we both love I mean love food, but here is my thing I wasn’t always like this at one point I was in shape and still able to eat the food I love I was also playing soccer 6 days a week back then, and now not so much. Now I have tried to train like I’m playing soccer again to lose the weight, doesn’t help, I have tried weight watcher can’t stick with it so now I’m trying something new. Here it is I’m going to blog about my journey, struggles, successes, ups, downs, left, rights you name it about me getting in shape what I did to workout, what I eat how I’m changing my life and what’s going on in my life. In reality its away to make me accountable to lose the weight, its like a day in the life of me. I don’t care if any one reads this I just have to find what helps me to prefect my self-image for myself and well for other people too, but if by chance people do read this I hope that I can help them in their quest to loss the weight as well. Oh yeah I’m going to tell you now if you are some one who can’t deal with people who spell things wrong or have bad grammar this so not the blog for you to be reading…and its ok for you to judge me on this, but just so you now I will be judging you and your horrible dancing skills and my friends will be judging your bad taste in clothes and shoes, its only fair. If you can get over that then carry on following and reading my blog….Food you may be winning the war and the battles now, but soon the tides will turn and I’m going to kick your ass into next week and then kick it again. Until we meet again.
Fat girl out.