They Fit!!!!

Ladies you know those pair of paints or that dress or even that shirt that you just love and you haven’t been able to wear for the past several years. Those clothes that sit in the back of your closet that every now and again you look at and say “some day I’m going to be able to fit back in to this” so you never throw them out. You know, your “skinny clothes”.  The clothes that remind you of those days when you were thin and cute, with out all the extra rolls and muffin top.  Now if any of you ladies are saying to yourself “what I don’t have anything like that in my closet, everything I have in there I can wear”…ok first of all stop lying and seconded of all I can’t believe I just caught you in a lie…”you lie to me you fucking guy” (in my best Asian voice or Indian voice” what ever you would like to add in there). Anyway that section of your closet “no mans land”…Well I have that same section and I went there yesterday I fought back the dust and cobwebs and found a pair of my old size 18 jeans, and with out hesitation I pulled them out and decided it was time to try these on once again. There I am, staring at this pair of size 18 jeans that look brand new because I think I only wore them a handful of times before I got Fat and had to go up a size. One more look at those jeans and there is that moment of I don’t think I’m going to be able to get these over my hips and ass but I took the challenge and start to pull them on, and have you ever notice at each major intersections, your thighs, butt, hips and the final buttoning your paints there is a small victory that goes on as you are able to get these pants over each of those obstacles. So yes I got them over my thighs, now to make it over my butt and hips and with out having to do the squat and jump move in hopes that while your jumping in the air that gravity will have its way and help you into the paints which are two small, I was able to pull the jeans over my hips and butt. Now for the final challenge the buttoning of the pants….(dun,dun,dunnnn).

Ladies we have all been there before using the different methods to get a pair of pants that are two tight buttoned. If I suck in all the air around me I will be able to get these pants to button, which can work, that is until you move or breath again then its all over…Pants 1 You 0. Then there’s the very famous I’m going to lie on the bed and suck it in a bit, because gravity will flatten my stomach and yes the pants are buttoned.  One small problem with this method…now your stuck on the bed unable to move because these damn pants are to tight, so now you run the risk of looking like a beached whale rolling back and forth trying to get up. If by chance you do get up your now too light headed to do anything because you can’t breath, the pants have taken away all breathing capability, and you just inhaled all the air around you to button he damn things.  Also, your to afraid to exhale for fear of that damn button is going to come flying off bounce off the wall and hit you in the eye. It’s like one of those moments when fashion fights back, and again Pants 1 You 0. So here I am at the buttoning stage, and I deiced to go with the plain old try to button them with out any help and drum roll please…………….. I WAS ABLE TO B UTTON AND ZIP MY JEANS UP THEY FIT …I have a little bit more of a muffin top when I put them on but the point is they fit, and I can move around in them and breathe and yes I did a happy dance and a little jumping around. I have not been in a size 18 pair of pants in the past 5 years if not more. I mean when you do something like that who gives a damn about the muffin top, to get in those jeans is like a monumental event.

            Its little successes like this that make all of these changes worth every little challenge and struggle. Its great to get on a scale and see the weight drop but I think its even better when you can notice the changes in your clothe size or even when you notice you are getting more definition in places that looked a bit like a blob and you don’t know where one body part ended and the other part began.. Not to mention what when you start to feel good about the way you look your confidence level starts to go up, you start to walk a bit taller spend a little bit more time getting ready because you feel like its ok for people to notice you, or you feel like you can just take on anything that comes your way. Case and point to that statement.

            The other day at work while dealing with a customer who I would deem as a D-bag the guy who wears and affliction tank top that is two sizes to small, the one where you want to look at him and say “Hi Mr. T called and said he wanted his look back and I “Pity the Fool” who took it, yet there he is in this tank top showing off his muscles and hairy gorilla arms, and the let me wear my true religion jeans that make my ass stand out because they are bedazzled, we all know that guy…need I say more. So anyway I have never seen someone get so mad over the fact that I was trying to save them money, but here he was upset to the point where he was as red as a lobster and clinching and unclenching his fist and breathing like he was lifting 150 pounds or more, and the more that I showed his little display wasn’t affecting me the more upset he got, which in my head I was laughing my ass off at him because that’s what I do. So, after he left to finish his shopping, one of the guys I work with came up to me and was all “hey when he comes back come and get me just in case that guy gets upset I can be there” which I will say was very nice that he was trying to look out for me. Now my reaction to that was to puff out my chest say “what, that guys got nothing on me”…really that guy could punch my face in, but its cool I’m confidant and can take on the world. Funny how parts of your personality can go away, but come back so quickly when your starting to become comfortable with who you are.

            It feels so good to not only see the change and physically feel the changes, but it also feels so good to hear people saying things like “you look good” or “I can see that you are losing the weight” and better yet “its so nice to hear you laughing again, I know that you are really happy with things now” Simple things like that really help with all of this, I mean if there was ever a time that if you are questioning what your doing is the right thing, the answer is always yes when people tell you things like that. You know you’re doing well but it’s a great feeling when other people notice what is going on with you and see your changes.  

            Here is a little food for thought, a little exercise for your mind. Here are a couple of quotes that really haven’t made much sense to me in the past but I’m starting to really understand the meaning of these quotes.

1.      “The meaning of life is to apply meaning to your own life” – Babu

2.      “Not just live and let live, but live and help live” Dalai Lama

Tell next time

Fitting in to my size 18 jeans girl out.